Mornin Mornin

Wednesday night : Out Partying with N, his gf M, Na, Pr and his gf.. er.. don't remember her name..
Damn fucking boring..
Partying is pretty boring,... and I always remember that AFTET I blow 800 bucks!..
Crap!.
anyway...
so.. I'm sitting here.. thinking what to do today... the 24th...
Guru wants me to come with him and a few other friends to church, which sounds like a good Idea. I'm not a christian, but I enjoyu studying other religions... how they function, what keeps their people together etc. books are the most useless way of studying any social structure/phenomenon/event. I like the live! thing... Very much FUn!

I don't know though.. I don't feel upto it... Plus this damn cold is annyoing me... Really really BAd...
*Sniffle*

Coversations with Bob Just isn't shaping up... Just havent got the time to sit and type it...

hmm.. no.. thats not true,... not true at all..

The thing is... I really want to write this... and I want it to be good... But ... even though I don't admit it to myself,.. the truth is,.. I'm not sure I'll come up with something good...


no.. don't take me wrong... I don;t want reassurances... (which always rock, in a sad pathetic sort of way) ... I just need to get down to it.

AArghaa!!... ARHKLHKLenfhjsdlf 'kl!... ... I've been like this my whole life./... FEAR.. u bitch!..

Why am I so scared of everything... ??.. WHY!?/ FUCKING HEll!!

something so small is holding me back!?? ...

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....



This is going to be done.... No Fear.. No Fear... Say it like a litany..

BALLS OUT!!!>.. PEE INTO THE WIND!!!


I'm gonna beat the shit out of me if I ever get scared again.... wait... i'll get my knucleduster...



(So brave i sound, don't I... almost fooled meself)